thoughts for the broken hearted

I will walk this path in front of me looking at it as another challenge
a challenge to face one of my biggest fears.
 
as i sit here contemplating and stewing with many thoughts, one of the biggest ones is why.
The answer is so simple and plain, for a love that hasn't yet died because of a yearning for what had been the highest point in life. Dreams coming true, no worries, no debt a yearning for that so strong that tricks the mind into thinking its still in love when really its in love with the image. going back to it though doesn't mean things will be the same only setting oneself up for more heartache because when you take the dream away what is left?
 
Some people say relationships are hard work that marriage is hard work, its only hard work when you fall apart and try to pick up the pieces adding strain and stress to everything around you. A relationship should flow easily a relationship should be easy. You have to be happy with who you are to be happy in a relationship if your not happy with the person you are then don't go into a relationship your not ready.
 
Guard your heart my dear friends for there are demons everywhere and there are the lights who are telling you what they know to protect you. For they know the truth and yet there are those of us who choose not to listen to them. Dont let yourself be destroyed by the demons the pathway is yours. This goes for every aspect of life demons and the lights. demons are there to misguide you for there own personal enjoyment and the lights guide you to the light to be one with the energy of everything around truth and pure love.
 
Like the water beaten rocks how much can the heart take before it says enough!
 
The anger is there yes very much so but to take it out on the other person isn't the right thing to do either, for they are in pain too. By taking the anger out on the other person it makes neither party feel better about themselves. Pain and suffering is one of the many challenges we face in our long lives. Its the experiences we take back to Gaea at the end, that helps the next cycle of life learn from our ever growing list of mistakes.
 
Our mistakes become our personal baggage when your in a relationship no matter how strenuous the personal baggage is you accept the other half's baggage and it becomes your own. You help carry it not ignore it. lift the other person up and let them know that they are OK.
 
I often said the words i cant when in a previous  relationship i have now come to the realization why i kept saying them i  couldn't truly love the person i was with. I tried and tried and tried  but couldn't. Things should have ended differently yes if i could go  back and change what happened and how it happened i would but its not  possible i have to move forward from the past and learn from it.
 
There are many things i wish i could go back and change but cant i have said and done things to upset a lot of people and yes i know i have hurt them too. Just remember im only 23 with a very "heavy past" i experienced things growing up that a person should never experience i was sheltered up until the time i turned seventeen. I have had a lot of learning and growing to do that most people have there entire childhood and teen years to learn.
 
Life is a puzzle you get frustrated with it throw the pieces in the air and see where they land sometimes the fall together perfectly other times your still searching for that perfect piece. A piece of utopia in a world full of anger, lust and frustration.